It’s a funny thing, this furious love of the Father. His heart is for us. He pursues us. He sees us in our worst, in the depths of our soul…the parts that we don’t even understand or know exist. But yet even in seeing those deepest darkest parts of our heart, He beams with love. A love we will never comprehend on this side of heaven.
Yet in our humanness, we tightly hold onto our broken and messy bits. Even when we throw our arms out in surrender and say ‘Here I am God, send me, you’re my all, my everything’…Even when we think we’ve surrendered all, there’s always more to let go of. There are always areas to be made whole and complete in Him.
We hold on, because in our humanness, the idea of being wrecked and broken seems unattractive. It seems hard. It seems weak. But it’s in our weakness that we are made whole. It’s in our weakness that His strength is perfected.
There are times I’ve felt weary and have claimed 2 Corinthians 12:9 (“…My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness…”) just to get me through the day. As awesome as it is to think of God carrying us when we can’t take another step, I’m discovering a totally different side to that verse: the strength that comes from being beautifully wrecked.
I launched She is Loved just under two months ago. SheisLoved.org went live last week. I’ve never felt more in the ‘sweet spot’ of life than I do right now. I’ve never felt more confident that where I am is exactly where I’m supposed to be. I’ve never felt more ‘me’…I’ve never felt stronger in my spirit. Yet if you peeled back the outer layers, you’d see that my heart is an absolute mess in the best way possible.
I’m being beautifully wrecked. God’s power is being made perfect in my human weakness. As I’ve allowed God to expand my capacity to love people, He’s overwhelmed me with the ability to see my life – all of it – in a new way. The ‘more of Him’ needed for my current calling isn’t just limited to that area. His presence is rushing over the river banks of She is Loved and flooding my heart.
Does it all ‘feel good’ in the typical happy go lucky sense? Definitely not. There’s ache as my heart breaks for women who have endured (and/or still enduring) less than favorable circumstances. But the ache fuels the excitement of planning their She is Loved session. The ache brings a new strength to speak life and plant seeds of hope and love in previously barren soil. The ‘weakness’ is bringing strength. His power is being made perfect in it.
Pressing in, going for broke, or even just considering letting go of the things we have tightly clenched in our fists is scary. Terrifying. But it’s soooo worth it. For His power and strength is made perfect in our weakness.
(And if you have abt 5 min to watch/listen to this song and let it soak into your spirit, I promise you won’t regret it:) )
Out of Hiding by Steffany Gretzinger
Come out of hiding, you’re safe here with Me
There’s no need to cover what I already see
You’ve got your reasons, but I hold your peace
You’ve been on lockdown and I hold your key
‘Cause I loved you before you knew what was love
I saw it all, still I chose the cross
You were the one that I was thinking of
When I rose from the grave
Now rid of the shackles, My victory’s yours
I tore the veil for you to come close
There’s no reason to stand at a distance anymore
You’re not far from home
I’ll be your lighthouse when you’re lost at sea
I will illuminate everything
No need to be frightened by intimacy
Just throw off your fear and come running to me
Oh as you run, what hindered love
Will only become part of the story
Baby, you’re almost home now
Please don’t quit now
You’re almost home to me
Image Credit: Ginny Corbett Photography